Writing

Find your way back to your self

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We’ve all been there, that place where we lose sight of our self and who we are. How do we find our way back to our self? How do we open our hearts to courage so that we can take that step towards being with our self? We must begin, no matter how painful, no matter how low, no matter how frustrated, no matter how irritated and no matter how upset we are. We have to believe that even in the darkness there is a light shining. This light is not on the outside, but on the inside. Inside of you, where it remains lit, untamed and unshaken by any winds from the outside. Why? Because the outside circumstances, situations, emotions, thoughts or feeling have no affect on it. The only affect on it is the effect of eternal love; which is its fuel. This is the reason why this light burns in the first place. To realize this knowing is the initial step in allowing yourself to come back to  your self. When you grasp on to the stillness presented in this presence, you can use it as a rope to pull yourself out of wherever it is that you’ve gotten yourself lost into. Take a step towards accepting that where you are right now is okay, but its not where you belong. You belong in the open loving arms of your self, with the one that accepts you and loves you unconditionally. The conditions in which you are right now, are not conditions of your self. They are imaginary puppets of your dualistic mind, whose only requirement is that you obey it, honor it and listen to it. What if you didn’t do that? What if you chose not to listen? What if you decided to break the chains with which it has tied you down? Instead, what if you chose to honor Creation, of whose masterpiece you are? And what if you lovingly chose to honor your true self? You are not separate from your self, your mind creates the separation in order to satisfy its desire to always be in charge. Always be in control. Always be in the limelight. Your self doesn’t need this limelight, because its light is not one to be reckoned with or even one of comparison to the mind. It burns confidently in its knowing of who it is and who it has come here to be. Sit with this conscious knowing, thank it and allow it to embrace you and allow it to guide you back home, back to your self.

Daily Prompt: But No Cigar

This close is a beautiful asimily for when you are trying so hard to control the outcome in your favor; however, the outcome does not happen as so. Instead, the outcome is usually something you don’t want to happen or did not anticipate happening. Like everything in life, even this close, has meaning and some truth behind it. This close is a representation of control. Controlling so life will go in your favor, rather than you going in the favor of life. However, it can be misunderstood as ‘what the heck went wrong’ or ‘where did I mess up here’. The emphasis is too often placed on what could I have done differently or better to rig the outcome in my favor. Very rarely is it looked at as, this had to happen in order for something else to happen. It happened because thats how its supposed to unfold for me to gain the most amount of understanding of life and grow as a spirit. All spiritual growth happens when either shit hits the fan, when we are faced with situations that are not controllable or when we deal with pain. All this eventually culminates to an awakening of something within that causes us to look at and live life different. Not until life slaps you across the face, do you really understand what it means to be alive.

*All daily prompts are via The Daily Post, today’s prompt.

The Tea Cup

A tea cup rested on the table right across from me as I gazed my eyes all around its composition. It was slender at the bottom, fuller at the top. It was all white with a blue sketching of a hummingbird which sat right at its rim, as if it were looking into the hallow cup. It had a softness and gentleness about it as it sat there on top of the saucer. Its handle reminded me of long slender fingers of a girl whose nails were always painted red. The tea cup seemed so lady-like and proper, it was a perfect companion to delicate caring hands that would handle it with care as it held a fragrant floral green tea for sipping and tasting.

Sacred Contract

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Cleverly she said she would do all that she could to keep that spark, that fire alive. She had made a commitment with all that scared her, all that challenged her and all that would change her life forever. She embraced the unknown with open arms and an open heart; ready to discover, ready to explore and ready to adventure. Into the hallows and depths of eternity from where she was from, yet never been.

Daily Prompt: Quirk of Habit

What is quirky, but a reflection of who you are. Its nothing to be dubbed as ‘annoying’ or ‘loveable’ rather just a representation of what is you, what is true. To accept your quirk is to accept that you are uniquely you, you are just being you. No sentiments, no labels, no I am this or I am that, but perhaps a self acceptance or self realization that quirky is, not what is quirky. Because what is quirky to one; is cool to another, but just an is to all. 

*All daily prompts are via The Daily Post, today’s prompt.

Daily Prompt: Forward

Life is a momentum, a pace by which the waves ride. For what it seems, you are either moving slow, fast, not moving at all or  just moving along. However, being with the flow is moving forward. You can only move forward once you’ve accepted the present, fully embraced it and have no rush to push forward. Then, you can relax into the moment and let the moment be your guide, next stepping stone to forward. Its not a process, but rather a way of feeling and knowing that forward is always there, it’ll always happen. The question is not how gracefully can you move forward, but how much grace can you occupy in the here and now. Life is about chance, change, growth, discovery, progress, learning and forward. As the famous lines say, “Life goes on”, thats what forward is. Stories all collectively moving forward for a better tomorrow; a greater cause and to be an authentic you, who is not bound by time or space; but by your knowing that forward is just a state of mind, not a place of being.

*All daily prompts are via The Daily Post, today’s prompt.

Daily Prompt: Heroic

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I can’t remember much from when I was five, just like how I can’t really remember the early years of my life. My memory lacks in knowing anything to do with that point in time, it may have been to do with the environment I was in. See I was born in a little town in India where people didn’t really have hero’s, idol’s or even aspirations. Life was just about staying afloat, having enough food to put in your belly and making sure you had a roof over your head. I suppose the only people in my life who come anywhere close to being my hero, would be my parents. Although I would not define them as my hero; they were heroic in a way that I think is admirable. As an early 20 something year old with a young child is not necessarily the easiest thing to handle when you are still trying to make sense of your own life, and here you are left with making sense of your life, but also dealing with any repercussions your decisions would have on a senseless young child who you are responsible for. While my parents tried to make some sense of their lives, I was sent off to live with relatives. These relatives were nice, but they too hadn’t a clue about bringing up a child. I was left to fend for myself and give my life a new meaning. My new identity became molded by the environment, people and circumstances around me at that point. While looking back at that period in my life, I think I can say that I was my own hero, but at that point I didn’t know it. I took care of myself, wept with myself, wandered with myself and was my only friend. Although it was lonely and painful at times, it taught me to never leave my own side. It grew my strength all while exposing me at a very young age to the many colors of life.

#2

Beside me always remaining, holding me, embracing me, but most of all loving me.
You showed me the light, the truth of who I am, you stood by my side, you pushed me to grow, discover and learn.
You understood me yet never tried to change me.
You are my companion.
You are my soul to the body.

*All daily prompts are via The Daily Post, today’s prompt.

Daily Prompt: The Outsiders

Your outside is your inside. What you see outside is what you hold inside. They are reflective of one another, just a like mirror reflects back what the mirror sees. There is no interpreting, dissecting, labeling or trying to make an identity of what you see because the outside is just the outer shell of the inside. It holds a matter of great value. It doesn’t try to shape it; rather it becomes shaped by the inside. The inside is what runs the show, what gives the outside life. Living with an awareness of what is the inside; is knowing that the outside is where the physicality is showcased. How you feel and live with your inside is how you will feel and see your outside. Change the way you look at your inside, change the way you identify with your outside. They are parallel lovers, two of the same kind yet heavily rested into their promising images of what they are. They are nothing but signs of life, breathe and this human earthly existence. To be lived on the outside, yet felt on the inside.

*I have challenged myself to write daily so I can grow, learn and see what words come out from within me. All daily prompts are via The Daily Post, today’s prompt.

BY THE WAY

Many times we are too afraid to step out, let the world hear our voice, share what we have to offer all because of this little nonsense voice inside our heads that somehow talks us into believing that we are not good enough, and perhaps that we may never be enough. Stop right here, because you know what, as you are…you are enough. Think about it, you are a walking, talking, breathing miracle…living in paradise, you just have to awaken yourself to it, and be willing to realize it. If you have dreams, passions, goals or aspirations…follow through. It doesn’t matter if you think its not “original” or  its not good enough, because it is. We all have our own contribution and services to give to the world, its coming from you, that in itself is unique.

Anything you have a burning desire to do, do it and don’t go down the what if highway. Its not about comparison or competition that will get you far, but its about being who you are and realizing that you have a gift to offer. You are you, and you cannot be and will not be someone else.

Backstage

What do you do when you feel lost, confused, fed up and overall just really in a fog? That is exactly how I feel right now, and I can’t precisely pinpoint why. It sort of snuck up on me all of the sudden, it didn’t even give me a warning! All my emotions are a jumbled mess in my head. If there was a weather forecast for my head it would say this, “50 degrees with winds at 25 mph and 90% chance of flooding.”

Why do I feel this way? Well, I know that I am in a cycle of self destruction and self loathing right now. As to why I fall into these cycles of cynical disposition with my self, I have no clue. Perhaps a sense of unfulfillment, boredom, lack of joy, lack of self expression, but I think most of all the lack of self worth. I feel like I am doing absolutely nothing with my life, and the reality of the matter is that I am not. I am a lazy bum who loves to sit around all day and just wait…wait for what? I have no clue. Wait for the day that dollar bills pour out of the sky so then I can go on epic adventures around the globe, visiting and escaping from this treacherous world of insanity. But I can’t do that, and I won’t do that. Whats the point in running away, escaping and avoiding? This too is a part of the beautiful journey of life, and it too must be experienced. Because within these sappy, sad experiences lie crucial information about who you are. When you can stop trying to resist this state you can try to understand it and eventually the gift in it. Challenges always come bearing gifts. Every time you have a challenge remember there is also a gift involved, so keep your chin up and let them come. You’ve got this, you can handle anything, because nothing is greater than you. You are indestructible and you cannot be demolished. So stay with it, it too shall pass. Trust. No more comparison to what others are doing, or how amazing and wonderful their accomplishments are. So what if they are doing great things on stage, but do you know what’s going on backstage? You are taking care of the backstage stuff, so the show can shine on the front and center stage. You are taking the time to really understand, embrace and get to know the material so even if the there is glitch during the show.  You will remain calm, but most of all you will be able to stay with your peace and joy. There is no rush or something to have…it happens when it will, your only requirement is that you show up for yourself daily and choose to live this joyride called life. Live it fearlessly, live it with passion and most of all live it with authenticity!

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