Emotions

Backstage

What do you do when you feel lost, confused, fed up and overall just really in a fog? That is exactly how I feel right now, and I can’t precisely pinpoint why. It sort of snuck up on me all of the sudden, it didn’t even give me a warning! All my emotions are a jumbled mess in my head. If there was a weather forecast for my head it would say this, “50 degrees with winds at 25 mph and 90% chance of flooding.”

Why do I feel this way? Well, I know that I am in a cycle of self destruction and self loathing right now. As to why I fall into these cycles of cynical disposition with my self, I have no clue. Perhaps a sense of unfulfillment, boredom, lack of joy, lack of self expression, but I think most of all the lack of self worth. I feel like I am doing absolutely nothing with my life, and the reality of the matter is that I am not. I am a lazy bum who loves to sit around all day and just wait…wait for what? I have no clue. Wait for the day that dollar bills pour out of the sky so then I can go on epic adventures around the globe, visiting and escaping from this treacherous world of insanity. But I can’t do that, and I won’t do that. Whats the point in running away, escaping and avoiding? This too is a part of the beautiful journey of life, and it too must be experienced. Because within these sappy, sad experiences lie crucial information about who you are. When you can stop trying to resist this state you can try to understand it and eventually the gift in it. Challenges always come bearing gifts. Every time you have a challenge remember there is also a gift involved, so keep your chin up and let them come. You’ve got this, you can handle anything, because nothing is greater than you. You are indestructible and you cannot be demolished. So stay with it, it too shall pass. Trust. No more comparison to what others are doing, or how amazing and wonderful their accomplishments are. So what if they are doing great things on stage, but do you know what’s going on backstage? You are taking care of the backstage stuff, so the show can shine on the front and center stage. You are taking the time to really understand, embrace and get to know the material so even if the there is glitch during the show.  You will remain calm, but most of all you will be able to stay with your peace and joy. There is no rush or something to have…it happens when it will, your only requirement is that you show up for yourself daily and choose to live this joyride called life. Live it fearlessly, live it with passion and most of all live it with authenticity!

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How to overcome Anger

 

In this video I talk about how you can control and overcome your anger. How to channel it into something that is positive and beneficial for you.

Be You ♥

Sometime ago I was asked this question “Name one thing that you love about your everyday life?”

I sat there and pondered this question for a good few minutes, but my mind still drew blank. I started searching all the files in the cabinet of my brain categorized “Everyday Life”…absoluetly nothing was found. At that moment I had a huge slap of realization, an opheniny, the reason that I could not answer the question was because I didn’t love my life. Instead, my life was comprised of wishful thinking of all the people’s lives I wish I had and could live. A sad truth, but it holds held to be true for me, and probably tons of other people too.

We all get so caught up in wishing and wanting the lives of people we see on TV, in movies, in magazines or anyone who we think has it all. What the heck does having it all even mean? We gravitate towards this embodiment of happiness like a magnet and let jealously step into our consciousness. Clinging onto jealously we begin to think life is not fair, I’ll never be happy, rich enough, skinny enough or pretty enough. God, I so badly wish I could be him or her, I hate being me. The feeling of helplessness, pity, anger, unworthiness and sadness overwhelms the mind, as it continues to search for answers to why? These may be daunting to answer, but there is a solution: start loving yourself and believing that being you is your biggest strength, it is the x-factor. A simple change in your beliefs and perceptions about yourself are your get out of jail card: the jail of fear, fear of being you.

Our potential is only ever limited in the way that we say it is — the way allow it to be. – Panache Desai

Exercise:
TODAY, give yourself 5 compliments. Write them down, do this everyday. Why not just make a “Compliment Journal” while your at it? When you allow yourself to receive it from yourself, then only you open the door to allow and receive it from others. We can’t expect others to give us something that we can’t give ourselves. Its about retraining your mind to think differently about yourself.

Be who you are, be as you as you can be, thats why you are. Express your magnificence, your only purpose is to be who you came here to be. – Anita Moorjani